My Heaven (0)


I am ill. Cough and cough like gila babi. Got a lil fever. The worst part is worrying about my phone, coz SSY haven't pass it back to me. At least with a phone, i can stay in touch with my remedy, my lou kong.

My store don't have enough staff, so i have to work till midnight tonight. I haven't finish my assignment yet which we're gonna discuss tomorrow with my group tomorrow. I guess gotta burn midnight oil again. I'm so fucked! Exhausted. I really wish at this point i got someone to rely on and a shoulder to cry on. Lou Kong ah!! But i'm fine. Don't worry. Just minor ill. I took panadol ACTI-FAST, so i'll be fine in no time. 

I just feel so vulnerable when everything keeps piling up non-stop. I am very troubled. I'm a mess. But i don't need self pity to myself. I think it's only life.

This song just smooths me whenever i'm down lately.

The Fire Theft-Heaven
Are you really waiting outside the door?
Never thought I'd hear the words before the road

It's the simple things that are so hard to grasp
Can't find myself in all the days that passed
But I can feel it when it shines
Nevermind, I'm falling in love with you
Can't find the road that runs through
Falling in love with you

Are you really waiting outside the door?
Never thought I'd hear the words before the road

It's the simple things that are so hard to grasp
Can't find myself in all these days that pass
But I can feel it when it shines
Nevermind the way they shy
Turning round along the trail
My whole world is falling in love with you
Can't find the road that runs through
Falling in love with you
Can't find the road that gets through

This song is dedicated to that person who gives me a place where i can call heaven now.. 
I will never stop loving you.


Re:4th Floor (2)


Been extremly busy, tired and occupied lately. Seems like there is no rest for me. Luckily i still have time for my boyfriend. But i guess Melanie is falling. She is falling ill. Funny thing is, she thought Vitamin C can make her stronger and prevent her from falling ill. Work has been ok. Just that, i suck at money and maths, that's why she had been facing problem with counting money at work. Sucks!

Was super late yesterday to Mid Valley to see Wern Sern receive his reward. Walked about for hours for dinner and i freaking left my mobile in my ex-boyfriend's car with lots of interesting messages of my boyfriend and i.

I miss doing nothing the whole day at home and doing something that i like for that whole day with my boyfriend. I miss being jobless and studyless. I miss just me and my boyfriend only. I just miss life with him.. Now i'm just living my life, without him.

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Bye Bye (1)

I hate listening to radio. Was at Aunt's car on my way to college this morning, this local radio station played Mariah Carey's Bye Bye and Christine for singing it like the whole morning. Reminded me of Nicholas dedicated that song to me when the incident happened to Ringo. I really miss him. I misses his presents. I misses his silliness. I misses his bites on my arms and the way he misses me when i wasn't around. It really hurting to recall what happened. I wish i could take it all back. I still haven't forgive myself for what happened and i will never forgive myself... Ringo, you'll always be a part of my life.

Bye Bye.mp3 - Mariah Carey
"Bye Bye"

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever


(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

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I wanna dedicate this song to everyone who lost somebody close and dear. And most of all, i hope Ringo knows that i love him alot, and i always will.

I wanna thank God for blessing my aunt through the op today without entering the ICU. I hope she'll be fully recover in no time.

Haih.. Really miss Wankit's presence. Lots of things haven't been goin well between us. I hope we;ll be fine soon. Labels: , , , ,

Don't (3)


Econs test on Friday was hell! I didn't manage to study, so i went to college without any knowledge of Microecons to the exam hall, except for my Microecon's knowledge from Form 6, which is in Malay. I think i did so-so. Not close to average. Then later on at night, went out to Pyramid with Venna and Wern Sern. Had dinner and had a very long chat about life, girls, guys, EXes and etc.
After dinner we went to Republic to chill, met Jing Xuan there. Gosh! She's looking real hot now. Then i drank a lil bit of wine then i got tipsy de. :S
After Chew, Ah Long & Josh came, we went to Starbucks...
The boyfriend was pretty dissapointed coz he skipped class to go home to webcam with me, but i was with his friends. Hmm...

Anyway, the next day went to Time Square for Starbucks training and i was super late, the lift was slow, so i ran up from 1st floor to 10th floor. I nearly die halfway.
Then i realised my wallet only left RM10. I remembered i still have RM30 last night when i paid for my wine. After half an hour i only recalled, we all went to Starbucks for a drink. Lolx..

I have a goal that i wanna achieve by end of this month, I wanna learn how to balance my work and studies by end of this month.

I have been so busy lately, i haven't been spending enough time accompanying Wankit. Feeling damn guilty every single day whenever he hangs up the phone. My heart breaks.. So i will try to balance my time with him with my this month's goal too..

New Blogskin!

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And It's You (2)

Happy 200th Days together, Lou Kong!
165 more days to 1 year. Lolx.. What the hell?! Now like Feli de. Lolx..

To me, you should know, the days doesn't matter that much, it's my time being with you that matters. Our progress of our relationship, our love and affection towards each other, that's important to me. But so far, you had shown your love to me unconditionally and you've been very respectful to me no matter near or far. I really love being in your life and i love you being in my life too. You definitely changed my life alot. And i really thank God for sending you to me. It's a blessing. You never make me feel i have to be someone else when i'm with you, and i'm very sure you are yourself when you're with me too. I feel there is nothing to hide from you, i feel naked when i'm with you, i feel extremly comfortable when i'm with you, i feel loved and in love when i'm with you.. I just feel everything that i can possiblily feel when i'm with you. You're my everything.

I hope we'll both stay strong to go through these tough times when we're away from each other.
I love you.

He wrote chinese for me after his chinese classes..
So proud of him.
Even i also don't know how to write.

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Life Is Short (4)


There had been lots of bad things happening around me, directly and indirectly.It's just so scary that's it's non-stop. Cases after cases, death after death. What worries me most now is my aunt, she was found in a hospital. So girls, please be attached and get hitch. If you don't, make sure you're alway connected to your friends and family. The most recent bad stuff that happened around me is this 16 years old girl, a sister of my mum's friend, had been kidnapped and murdered in Johor. Gosh.. Can read the details from here.

Anyway, life is short. Appreciate what you've got, especially your family and friends. Most importantly, take good care of yourself. Always be alert..

Life is short, does it mean i should go and be with Wankit now? Yes! But i guess not. If God wanna take me away now, it's meant to be. But if God wanna take him away from me, it's unfair!

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My Southern Comfort (0)

Last weekend was the best weekend ever! First thing is, i don't have to work. Second thing is, met up with my southern comfort, girlfriends from the south, whom i love alot, plus my deary cousin! We hang out the whole day at The Curve. :] I miss those days.. I had fun with them, sit around and just talk.

Unfortunately, they wanna go do something wild after that, so i didn't wanna follow. I called Shan Yong to pick me up, but Wern Sern volunteered himself with Ah Long to pick me up, by asking is Venna there or not. Hehe.. Inside joke.
Anyway, really wanna thank Ah Long and Wern Sern for picking us up. Owe you guys..

Sunday was the best. I just stay at home the whole day, chat and web cam with Wankit and sleep the whole day. It was heaven! I love weekends when i can have the most of Wankit. I miss him so much.

Today first time taking public transport from home to college!! So proud of myself. Met Joshua in KJ Station. Such coincedence.

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I will come out with better post when i'm a lil free in life. So hectic now!! Econs quiz this coming Friday. Labels: , , ,

Breaking Point (1)


It's 12.27am, slept less than 4 hours for the past 1 day, sat an exam, mugged like mad, worked for 7 hours after exam, had only RM3.30 of sandwich for dinner, have cuts on my finger and it's shivering, missing home, missing my family, missing Wankit and Mummy the most, feeling vulnerable, tears in my eyes, wearing Wankit's jacket hoping to feel his hug, wondering why is my dad so heartless, wondering why am i doing here, wondering what am i working so hard, wondering should i give up whatever i have here including my degree and be with Wankit, wondering why am i so not smart, wondering why i can't enjoy my life in college life and study with no worries, wondering is this life..

I guess it's because, i have to.

I am officially dead from now on till 12 hours later. I won't answer any calls. Please don't disturb me.

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Desperately In Sleep (0)

Exam was fine. Thank God, i studied! Or else i don't even know what the hell they are talking about. Had very little sleep last night. Woke up extremely early for revision and eat luncheon meat sandwich, since my group assignment is gotta do with it, SPAM!!, is our company's name.

Came back with Wankit's parcel for me.. And these are the stuff he sent me. I know he's a great great boyfriend, hubby, baby or anything sweet to describe him.

The vibrating toothbrush! We have the same pair.. :D
And the blue toothpaste we used together when he was back for summer..
I miss my lou kong.
Probably i'll just quit college and start my life with him.

I know i look damn freaking pale.
I am damn tired and sleepy.
Less than 4 hours of sleep je.
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Fucking tired and sleepy but i have to fix my Streamyx first. So fix the wire and line, 4.30pm de. Slept for 15 minutes, manager called to come and work early. :S
So i freaking worked from 5.30pm till 12am. I fucking need some sleep. Luckily i've got free drinks, JAVA CHIPS FRAP!!

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Not My Best (0)

I haven't been doing well academically. It's my fault. And in less than 3 hours time, i'm gonna sit for my mid term. Supposingly it's suppose to be a gift for my mummy's Bday. I guess i will disappoint her, again. Labels: , ,

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To The Left (0)


Relaxing with my classicals collection. Nothing relaxes me other than classical music. Thanks to Bong.

My left side of my head is hurting so badly.. I am really stressed out. I'm so behind the syllabus in Intro to Mass Com. Most probably coz i don't get what it means. Intro to Mass Com to me is so full of crap, i guess it's a study, so i guess it don't have to make sense. 

I miss Chow Wankit.

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Intro To Design : ASS-ignment 1 (0)

Hmm.. Just passed up assignment 1.
We're suppose to come out with a company name, tagline, letterhead and name card.
And these are my work. With Wankit as my Choreographer. :]
He's an excellence dancer.

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Next is, the same dance academy organizing a dance competition.
So i have to design a Poster/Flyer.
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The Legendary You and That Person (0)


I don't hate you.

I'm just get intimidated and jealous by you and your past.

You're always the first and i'm always after you in whatever i wanna do.

I wish you don't exist!

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Rapidly Saucey (0)

Once again, didn't have enough sleep. Thanks to myself who have a boyfriend who lives 12 hours away from my normal clock. Arggh!
Was in college super duper early! It's a normal thing to me if classes starts at 8am, coz i follow my aunt to send her kids to school. So i normally reach college at 7.20am.
Met up with Jacq and catch up a lil, since we're in the same building today.
Did i mentioned that i met up with Pei Man after lunch yesterday? I miss the firmilar Johorean people i used to live with.
To be honest, i really miss home alot. I miss my granny alot! I also miss my mummy, i know she misses me too. I just wanna go home. But it's kinda hard for me to, coz now that i start working de, it's harder for me to go back. :(
I just wanna spend more time with my family when i still can. You'll never know what will happen tomorrow.

Anyway, Social and Business Communication class was super boring today, sleepy too. But Christine was worst.. Hehe.. Damn hungry after class. So after settling some stuff at the bank, Resh, Christine and i went to Mid Valley to grab some bite and black shoe for Starbucks. Hehe.. Thanks guys for accompanying me today? I'm sorry Christine for not letting you in to MPH. Next time k? Owe you.
We had lunch at Fish Market. All these time i never tried the rice at Fish Market, so this time i tried, thanks to Christine. It was super delicious!!

All the sauce that Christine alone finished.
She's a ketchup freak!
Plus sauce freak too!

After that, went back to college to pass up our design assignment. :]
Then headed straight home. But stupid RAPID KL took 1 hour to come and pick me up from Kelana Jaya Station! FUCK!

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Anyway, did my hair center parted today and i'm loving this style. Should i keep it side parted or center parted?

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Locked And Drenched (0)

Day before yesterday, Sern, Chew, Dar, Long, Venna, Josh and SSY came to my apartment to swim. Unfortunately, i got so excited when they were here till i forgotten to grap my keys which in my room and i locked my room. Yes! I was locked and i don't have spare key. So waited for my landlord to come all the way from her sister's house to open the door for me while the guys are already swiming.. Managed to get out after 30 minutes then went to join the guys at the pool. Had lotsa fun with them, especially the part when Venna got thrown into the pool. :]

Only had 3 hours of sleep last night. Had a lil disagreement with Wankit coz of some miscommunication. I guess he didn't encode properly and i didn't decode correctly.
I'm really lucky i am with such a great great guy who never fails to give me happiness each day of my life ever since we got together and always forgives me whenever i am being unreasonable. I'm sorry if i made your life a lil harder, but this is the road we both choose to go. I can't write anything mushy here, but what i wanna say is, i love you and i will never regret this.

Jo, Maya & KK
My adorable niece.. Chindian!!
So hard to get her to look at the cam.
Started working at Starbucks today. Didn't learn much but it was less boring than Station 1. Dranks lotsa drinks. :]
Had one with EXTRA whippied cream and EXTRA caramel. HEAVEN!

Just waiting for my hair to dry now and go to bed without talking to Wankit. And go to college and ston. Labels: , , ,

New Job (3)


I just got offered a job in Starbucks. I guess i'm changing my job again.

Longer working hours, more working days.. :s

Been wanting to update my Jaiku while working but my phone's memory's too low, it's filled with Wankit's text messages since the day we were apart. Should i delete it all?

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College (1)

So fast, it's already 3rd week of college. Been practically everyday with these bunch of people. I can imagine life in college without them, it would be... BORED! Group projects and discussion is always within us. Lolx..

Talking about assignments, i feel so stressed. All the due date of assignments is reaching soon and quizes and mis term! I guess i'm having the earliest mid term ever! 12th Sept! Now i really miss Form 6's life. If i got a chance to go back to Form 6, i wouldn't complain.

I really miss home. I haven't been sleeping enough lately. Been busy trying to understand Intro to Mass Com and busy travelling around from college to home and home to college. I miss the comfort of my bed. I miss the high speed internet connection. I miss popo, mummy and jojo. I miss all the free stuff at home, unlike here. And i've been losing alot of hair lately. Mummy said i'm too stressed and tensed but i don't feel so. Besides i'm using Pantene's Hair Fall Control!! Haha.. Stupid Pantene, con my money! I need to do something to my hair, maybe i should buy some banana. Haven't been eating enough fruits lately. Suprisingly i have been shitting smoothly! I guess it's the work of the Nescafe Gold. :]

About my part-time job, i kinda kena con again. Haih... Earn kinda lil but only work 3 days per week, 4 hours per day. Kinda easy for my college hours, more time for me to focus on my studies too. But earn quite lil lo. Should i continue working or not? That place is so chinese oriented and it's very dark and dimed, i think i need to wear specs to work. Can't see properly..

Reshma must always match her earings with her outfit.

Sandra, Chan, Christine, Ash(behind Christine) Pat, Resh, Me & Melissa

Sandra and i

Chan and i.
He was the first person i talk to on the first day i step into this college.
He's a very responsible and nice guy too.
He's immuned with our girls talk coz he's like the only boy among us.

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Old Days (0)


Look what i found at my old blog at Picasa Web Album! My Form 6 picture. OMG! So unattractive. :]

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I am now using Picasa Album. I so love Picasa! Coz i'm using Mobile Dail Up now and connection is really sucky and it's hard to upload pictures. With Picasa, it's super fast and easy! :] Picasa is for keep!

Anyway, been extremly unproductive today, so as Christine. Classmates, who's with me besides Christine?
I studied a lil today but it seems like there is lots of distraction. Do laundry, slept  a lil coz got headache and mummy! I guess i need a timetable..

Christine told me there is something wrong with my blog. Seems like those people who visits with XP is having problem with my blog. Those who uses Vista have no problem with it. So weird. Anyway, hope Kid Yie can help me make one layout coz my photoshop got a lil bit problem. 

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Room Tour (0)

Haven't really introduce the parts of my room.

My housemate is a malay girl. Only a year older than me but she's working de. She's nice and all. Everything here at my place is nice. Got swimming pool, gym, badminton court, NZX and home cook food from my aunt's house. She just live above my house. Just 1 level above. Haha...

My wardrobe from ikea..
The white short drawers are from Spore, some $4 shop for my undies, socks and bras
The black boxes, the bottom is for my bags, the top for my stocks like plastics, cottons & etc..

Behind the door is where i keep my shoes.

My bed. Not as comfy as the one at home tho. Luckily got my bolster to make me feel like home. The bed sheet kinda sucky, but it's the cheapest and the nicest.
The back of the door.
Where i hang my towel and worn clothes.
Door knob for me to hang my hand washed laundry.

From left: Softerner to soften all my handwashed laundry,
Basket for my shampoos, body wash, cleanser, tooth brush, shaver or anything that's gotta do with toilet is in there.
Stool. On stool got vitamins, and mug. Undr stool, LARGE bottle for me to store my drinking water.
Junk food bag. Inside got 2 bottles of honey, mammi monster, nescafe gold and other junks.
Black laudry for landry to be washed at my aunt's place.

And i just got a job at NZX. Wednesday will start working at Station 1. But it's night shift. Scared but i got to work. It's not like my mum can't afford to pay my rent and expenses, just that i don't wanna burden her.

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